Shhh

Strange how this is a personal blog yet I can't bring myself to talk about certain things. Some things are always going to be deep beneath you, intimate and personal. Like how I lost my trust and faith. It's a scary experience really and I got my lesson, it's just hard to undo the fact and put myself in a vulnerable spot where I might be treated the same way again.Well, if there are minor red flags, that is it. It's like warning signals, ringing bells. I am a hypersensitive snuff fluff. :/ 

All I want

I know it's too early for a Christmas wish but I am giving Santa and the reindeers enough time for preparation so they wouldn't screw it up. I just want my life to be filled with nice, encouraging and supportive people. Because currently, there's a lack of it. That's all I want in life at the moment. I know this is silly, but the great powers of the universe and cosmos,please, please grant my wish.

Familiarity

When the curiousity and excitement and the crisp newness has worn off, what is left is familiarity.

You know you are blessed when your family try to send your 'home' to you. Multiple times.

Woke up feeling happy

I woke up feeling happy today.

.....

Random thoughts. 

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched-they must be felt with the heart.

I think a lot of people compare their insides to other people's outsides.

You are the ink of my skin, you are the laugh lines.

I just want to pour out my soul to someone and not worry about the mess I've made.

There's time we can waste and there's time we must treasure, please have both with me.

You are beautiful because you let yourself love and that is a very, very, very, very, very brave thing indeed.

Your flaws are perfect for the heart that is meant to love you.

Never

Home

Having a blog is therapeutic. It's like a free dumping space for unnecessary feelings. Once I write a post, I wouldn't feel anything anymore after that. It's like my blog helps me to get rid of those bitter thoughts. Way better than caffeine and sugar which brings upon avalanches of guilt later.

You know what, I miss home. I know I've started living away from home for three years now and it's extremely rare that I feel homesick. But I do now.

It's The Thought That Counts

Got a torn sticker and a small note from the patient's little daughter. She called me 'Aunty' which made me feel old. But anyway, such a sweet gesture. Even though they didn't have much, she still thought about giving something to someone else. Me=touched. 

Peonies

Can just stare at them all day.

Sucks :(

I should stop knowing about anything else that happens in the world because it makes me feel more suckish about myself.
Why are some people just so freaking lucky? 

I desperately need some lucky vibes too!

Btw, been obsessed with anything which have (pickled olives + tomato ricotta pesto) recently, separately of course. So obsessed.

To conclude, my blog is all about me being dramatic about life events. It's pretty pointless actually. But I want to look back years from now and laugh at my own nonsense, so be it. 

Daily Grind

Somebody help me. I need a permanent energy booster.

Oatmeal In A Jar

Oatmeal in a Jar : 

What you need: 

1/2 cup quick-cooking rolled oats,1 tbsp. chia seeds, agave syrup, fresh fruit, greek yogurt and milk.

 Directions: 

1. Add the oats and chia seeds to the mason jar.

 2. Add any type of fresh fruit. {peaches, strawberries, bananas} 

3. Drizzle on a little agave syrup and few spoonfuls of yogurt. 

4. Top it off with fresh milk and then shake. 

5. Let it sit overnight in the fridge.

First You Say You Won't,Then You Say You Will

Just, meh. And the meh feeling continues.:)