pointless rambles

Tuesday, 19 August 2014


If things don't turn out that well, you can always make a great story out of it.

I have always been interested in spiritualism but I never really made any effort towards it. For a while, I thought it was just because I yearn for escapism but after thinking through, I realised it's very close to the way of life I want to lead. Just like everyone else, I grew up among the greed for power, the constant hunger for riches and materials and the admiration towards people who had insurmountable social influence. The ongoing reality of one-upmanship and how some people revel every time they put others down made me sick to my stomach. Not that there is anything wrong with that. It's my perception and I wouldn't want to impose it on anyone else. It never occurred to me to want to change those who truly believe that's how the world works, because they're not very far from the truth. I just want to make a difference in the way I think, the way I react and the way I live my life. I have no idea how will  this work out for me, but I want to try.

Sometimes, very bad things happen to you and you can't help but feel bitter. The world is falling down on you and you wish things are different but you don't have the ability to change it. That's when you feel helpless. It happens repeatedly for a few times and you will start blaming yourself and everything else. It's like all doors are slammed at your face. Whenever your effort goes unappreciated and those who don't deserve it got all the luck in the world, you lost faith in the world. You lost faith in yourself. And it takes a lot of hard work to pull yourself back up again. It's because you put too much pressure on yourself to succeed in this world and become too attached to it, you've forgotten to look inside yourself instead.

The first step on embracing spirituality is accepting yourself and all your flaws.( Duh, I know right?) Many people have tried to mask their shortcomings and only want to show their best to the world. Sure, the world may be fooled but you cannot fool yourself. Being caged in your own flaws and being scared about someone finding it out must be a miserable state to be in. While it might be easier said than done, I believe that in small steps, everyone can learn to love themselves in and out. To understand that our physical being is just a temporary shell of flesh, we should focus on our spiritual growth instead. This is a cliche and a well-known fact yet how many of us really want to believe and accept it? It's not easy to begin with, I understand because I have always had trouble with this concept. I have known this, from talk shows, books, from wiser people but I never really understood what that really meant till now. To be honest, I thought people who try to sell this idea were just being 'politically correct' and all those 'true beauty comes from within' talks irked me. It's because I haven't reached that state of mind to see the truth beneath everything. Like everyone else, I was blinded.

This path isn't going to be easy.Sociopaths are everywhere and people are going to hate you, misunderstand you and judge you, but if you have a true purpose in life and a soul which is clean from all the filth in this materialistic world, you can gain spiritual strength to overcome some of the challenges thrown at you. It's not easy to live among those who are so paradoxically different from you in their choices of life, but it's not impossible. I want a peaceful mind and a peaceful soul above anything else in life. I guess I just had my true spiritual awakening.

Love is the absence of judgement-Dalai Lama


  1. I could say 56 years ago, but in reality, it is ongoing, seems I am very capable of finding challenges in my daily life that aren't covered in my spirituality as I have defined it, so, I am always making changes

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